An existence void of knowing God’s Presence is a miserable one, especially when one believes there must be a Personal God in Heaven Who governs all things. Without experiencing God’s Presence, you can wonder what’s wrong with you. Why won’t He talk to you? Where is He? If everywhere, why not here? If always there, why not now? Is He angry with you? What does He want of you?
If God is real and can be personally available, who in their right mind wouldn’t want to have access to and know their status with Him?
These were things I was thinking and feeling so long ago in 1972 when I had come to great discomfort and search of my soul. I didn’t know it at the time but learned since then that He was drawing me and finally revealed Himself to me in part in 1973. That was a half-century ago! How time evaporates!
Throughout decades thereafter, there were several periods of varying length and intensity where I would experience more of the same but not as at that time when all was so dark, scary, lonesome, and purposeless.
It seems those quiet times come to try us, among other things. We need to be exercised to have faith in God and to grow and mature in it. Not only must we learn to trust Him and His Word to us, but He also needs to develop us into His likeness so that He can trust us. As I understand it, that’s what it’s all about.